Friday, May 11, 2007

I feel the sun warming me up

I can sing again.

I think that the sunshine is beginning to peek through the clouds and I can feel God's love a little more every day.

Last week, I had to be the MC for a woman's breakfast being hosted by our church, and while I was okay "acting" cheerful and chatting with people about totally unrelated issues, I found that when they got on stage to sing a couple worship choruses, I just couldn't do it. I had to stand at the back, hiding myself away, only able to mouth a few of the words in each song. It broke my heart to sing to God, the God who is over all the earth, who watches over us all.

However, as the week progresses, I'm finding the melody in my heart again. It sneaks up on me - it's like God's word and love is written on my heart, and no matter the trials or struggles, it can't help but bloom and grow.

Psalm 139
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me," 12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.

I'm not alone. There is a light that shines and pierces the darkness. I can lift my voice up to the God who sees all; who knows all; who understands my heart.


redeemed diva said...

Hey Lisa,
I love you posts. They are so authentic. I'm glad that your finding your song again-I love your singing voice.
Keep it up girl!

Anonymous said...

Singing helps to push away the darkness and brings us back into heavenly perspective when there is grief.

Bless you....... I'm proud of you.

Jen said...


I found you through Cheryl's site.

My heart aches at your loss....and rejoices at the glimpses of recovery.
Soon a number of your questions will be answered, and the ones that are not will bring a new level of growth.

When my mom died, I asked God constantly to hug her for me, to kiss her for me, to tell her the new things that were going on in my truly helped.


Shantelle said...

I am happy that you are starting to feel better! God bless!

Tamera said...

Lisa, when you wrote, "...I'm finding the melody in my heart again. It sneaks up on me..." it reminded me of a scripture.

Deut 28:2a says, "And all these blessings shall come on thee, and overtake thee..."

I pray that God's blessings continue to "sneak up on you" and overtake you.