Tuesday, May 1, 2007

Saying Goodbye

(After a weekend of bleeding, yesterday in the hospital, I found out that I had lost my baby. I was nine weeks pregnant. I'm trying to sort out my feelings a little.)

Sadness...
I'm saying good-bye to someone I never knew.

I'm not ready to ask God "why?"

My heart is comforted by the little warm bodies that come and visit me in bed as I rest and recover. I'm so thankful for my healthy, perfect children.

I've been crying off and on all day.

Jesus, could you give my baby one kiss from Mommy? Please hold my baby close for a while and I will one day be there to hug and hold my little one.

5 comments:

Tamera said...

Lisa,

I'm so sorry for your loss. {{{{{{hugs}}}}}}

Cheryl said...

I'm sorry for the loss Lisa. I lost one years ago as well. Just rest, let yourself cry, knowing that He understands and knows all things.

Bless you today Hugs.

redeemed diva said...

HUGE HUGs, Lis. thanks for posting here today--that was brave of you. I hope that this blog will help you release your thoughts, prayers and eventually your questions.
I'm standing with you, mourning with you, praying with you. All my love friend.

Amy said...

Truly courageous to let us in on your grieving period....Thank you.

My thoughts and prayers are with you, your husband, and the rest of your family. May you be able to rest in HIM.

"...I will strenghthen you and help you;I will uphold you with my righteous right hand...Isaiah 41:10."
Blessings.

Nana Cheryl said...

I will be praying for you today Lisa. I lost 2 little ones and I know they are safe and that I WILL see them some day. They just got there before me. :o)

Allow yourself time to cry and say goodbye. Hold your other little ones close - allow Jesus to hold you close too. He knows your heart.